Shirielise

I can’t help but think what made me stop writing my thoughts down. It’s as if I banned my own hands from writing and even sketching through my sketchpad. Something went awfully wrong and i can’t figure out what it really is. I know Artists have their lazy times or their Not-In-The-Mood” kind of thing, but really, this is not normal, I’m changing.

Believe me, I want to get back to art and writing. . . And i think I figured out the culprit of this art block insanity. Three words. Sense-of-Failure. Two Words. No-Fulfillment. One Word. Caffeine.

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I am a digital artist by skill, but I am an artist by heart. Art is my passion, it’s a part of who I am. If colors, swirls and sparkles are not a part of me, I am not the artist that I already am. I’ve been wanting to touch my art for a year now, and yet colorful sparkles of colors would not come out. Been too busy growing up and that’s not an exaggeration for sure.

Growing up is a part of life, being in love with art does not excuse anyone in skipping it. We live in reality, we do not live inside a storybook or a canvas; we make life, we don’t let life make us. Making a life, simply means, growing up.

I’ve been in college for sometime now, and boy, you don’t know how much i want to get out of it. College is the place, the reason why I have detached myself with my art, but it is the grounds where i grew up.

People say college is not needed, especially for artists. They say that college is plain for the left brained people, they’re for logical thinkers, artists don’t have a place in colleges, as they are labeled as the ‘weird’ ones. And to tell you the truth, I couldn’t agree more. Right brained people don’t need college. . . If you want to stay as an immature artist til the end of time.

College is all about the exams, the studies, classrooms, study here, study there. If you agree with me, then you do know what college is all about. . .NOT.

If that is how you view college, you’re missing the whole point of being there. College is a training ground for you, wether you’re an artist who took nursing, engineering or other un”artist” related courses, you’re still an artist by heart and taking whatever degree or field you are taking right now, it is all for your maturity and more importantly, for the maturity of your art. Don’t believe me? You don’t have to, it’s your choice. All i know, is I’m living what i say, I’m living my life, I take hold of it.

If you don’t believe me, then believe me when I say that it is in college that my art matured, and not only that, it’s in college where i got to control my creativity, my mood swings, and i got to hold my own paintbrush and paint the canvas of my life. Before I was the canvas, and my mood swings was the paintbrush. . . Live your life to the fullest, and this means discipline and maturity. And where do you learn maturity and discipline? Yes, you’ve got it. In college.

If you’re a successful artist right now that did not go through college, then my, I salute you, you’re one of the few; Sad to say, not everyone is as gifted as you are, that includes me. But that does not mean that I am not unique, I have my own different life, I am different in my own way and college has helped me realized this. I hold my own future, the future does not hold me, not even my past.

I am an artist by heart, a college student waiting for a degree in Bachelor of Fine Arts major in Fashion Design, and yes, i do take the challenge of having my passion for art at pause. It’s hard, believe me, extremely hard to not be able to create art for even a day, but for the maturity of my art, I take it for a pause. I know this maturity in art that I will achieve and claim with my diploma, will allow me to create far more greater arts that can not only touch my heart, but yours as well, and God willing, make a change, a revival for the future generations. <3