If there is anything that is different about me is that I am a Pastor’s Kid.
Growing up as one isn’t as easy, especially that I am an artist. It’s like growing up like a President’s daughter, a Royalty’s daughter, or any other important person’s daughter. No its no exaggeration.
Being a pastor’s daughter, as a kid, all eyes were on me. I have to pretend to be the “perfect child” or else my father’s title is at stake. I can’t be rowdy, I can’t make mistakes, I have to be a “lady” and act prim and proper. Because of these pressures, I have learned how to hide my tears behind my smiles, to laugh even if i want to scream.
It became a habit, growing up with the idea that i should be “perfect”, made it so hard for me to show the real me. All i did was show the good side of what i am and became good at hiding at what I am bad at. I fear mistakes, as to why i focused on pleasing people.
But as years passed, my father, yes my father, my family, and best friends helped me express who I really am. They helped me get out of my shell.
You see, I am just any normal person. I sin, I make mistakes, I rebel, I struggle with lust, I struggle with my weight, I struggle respecting some people, I can be judgemental, i can be very picky, I have insecurities when i face the mirror, it takes hours for me to choose what to wear to hide my fats, there are days that i feel like the ugliest being in the world, I gossip, I reject people, I lie under pressure, I easily get hurt, I am very sensitive, and so much more.
I am an ordinary being with imperfections. An ordinary being. . . but is now extraordinary because of God’s love. 🙂
I may be like everyone else, but if there is one thing that I know that makes me different from everyone else, is God’s love for me. It’s not that I am a pastor’s kid, its because God loves me and He was the one who helped me be the artist that I am now.
I have learned how to let go of what the world wants me to be. I chose not to hide tears behind my smiles, I chose to show my good sides and my bad sides. I chose to show who I am because I know deep in my heart how proud God was when He created me.
I let go of what people want me to be, and embraced how God sees me. Cause despite my shortcomings, my insecurities, my imperfection, there is a God who has His arms wide open to embrace me, and accept me, and forgive me. There is nothing to hide, there is nothing to fear. With God, there is just love, love that overcomes. 🙂 Love that encourages me, and pushes me to be a better person to overcome sin.
So for this season, for this day, I challenge you to chose to be yourself. To be who you are and let go of what others expect you to be, because if there is one Christmas gift that God could give you today, it would be a smile – an assurance telling you how happy He is with who you are. 🙂 Merry Christmas! <3